independence day

is it only me or does the 4th of july fireworks
show make your ears ring afterwards for a long time.
im afraid that it is damaging my hearing
plus the sounds are 2lound and sudden, i feel on
edge and my blood pressure goes way up during
the show i break in to a sweat and just wish that
i wasnt there. dont get me wrong i love liberty and
that but i hate fire work.

plus my brother larry always do a show in the yard
and i feel the same way. since he is really sick
this year im afraid that he
is going to ask me to do the shoe. and i feel
anxitey and nervous. just
with the noise ones not the sparklers. last year i
was doing a sparkler in oklahoma and i started the
shrubs on fire around my apartment, we were able to put it out
with just a bucket but i learned that fireworks are
too dangerous.

update: still no job, no prospects

cars and beach

ok so I have decide to stop with this whole job thing for a while because

1> I don't have any bills
2> i live with my brother and he has a good job
3> my family lives aound here and they said i can come by and get food anytime

the hole time i was working at the garden center i had to ride the dang bus. i haven't really had to get around much since i moved on LA i cant afford a car so i have to ride the bus. I had a car when i lived in okalhoma, a grand prix - but i crashed it into a flatbed semi at a rest stop in texas. it was night and i didnt see anything all of a sudden i was driving forward and i wrecked right into the flatbed part totaled the car and i didnt get even a scratch. i didnt have insurance but i covered the damage to the truck with some money i got from doing some plumming work for an apartment building in downtown tulsa

on happier news i went to the beach last weekend!!! i got on my swimsuit and hit the beach yeh i had to ride the bus and it was four hours round trip on the bus - but it was nice after i spent the day at the beach i realized that i didnt wat to ride the bus back in just my swimsuit (i didnt bring a shirt) and i called my brother to pick me up on his sportbike, but he didn't want to because he wasn't feeling well my mom and aunt couldnt come either. i would have bought a shirt but i didnt have money so i rode the bus home in just a wet swimsuit it sucked, but the day was worth it.

4ourth od july!

FIRED THAT WAS FAST

I GOT FIRED THIS MORNING!!!

first of all they were mad at me because i'm late every day thanks to the bus.
but then it really hit the fan when i came in this morning. i am not feeling well
anyway and they wanted me to get a pallet of wood chips off the high rack.
i have forklift training from way back so i was like "sure". well i think something was wrong
with the lift because it was moving really slow like it had a power drain. no problem.
but i had to hurry because there was a customer waiting for the wood to come down,
he was already mad becasue he had been waiting for like an hour. so i rolled past him really
slow (you could walk way faster). and i was sweating really bad from being sick. the whole
time the customer was like "can you get a different lift" and i kept telling
my boss "i think the battery is drained" but he said worry about the wood first.

then the customer was like, "i got a job waiting for this can we get a different lift"
so i went over to pull the one off the charge station. i was used to the slow one and
when i pushed forward the dang thing flew out of there fast like a rocket bird and knocked into the
grass seeds. the whole rack rocked back and forth and a bunch of stuff tipped off onto the
ground. some of it was like fertilizer or something because it started to stink really
bad - my eyes watered and i started feeling dizzy. i backed the lift up and the prongs of
the lift had punctured a ton of bags of seed and it started pouring everywhere...all over the floor.
the dust from the seed was too much and i threw up right there. whe i looked up the general
manager was there and he was just like pointing at the customer service desk and he said
"get the **** out" i thought he meant go work at the customer service desk for the morning, but later i found out he meant i was fired. why did he point at the dang desk? suks to be me :(

SO SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG, BUT I GOT A JOB WORKING 18 HOURS A WEEK AND HAVE NO TIME FOR ANYTHING

I did go to a poetry night nearby check it out:

1> THE SCENE
2> THE PERFORMER
3> THE TRIP HOME
YOU ENJOY